its been 16 years. 16 years since my life has started. 16 years (and counting) of a roller coaster ride. life had never been easy. sometimes I’m on top of the ride but most of the time, I am landing down 45 degrees.
the society has affected me so much. just like the weather, it is changing and its unpredictable. I can compare my life to four seasons: summer, fall, winter and spring.
why summer? summer is a very hot season and can make everyone grumpy. it can also make people feel excited because of the tropical dreams they are fantasizing. just like summer, I, too can feel upset at times. sometimes it is unbearable sometimes it can be mild. the people around me, my surroundings, play a huge factor in my mood. it is like a mood play in the summer. one second I’m enjoying the pool under the scorching heat and then the next, I’m whining about how everything feels humid and sticky.
why fall? fall is the descend of leaves from the trees. trees end up being bald during fall. fall is also the start of the holiday seasons. maple leaves, cozy socks, bonfire nights and hot chocolates. it starts to get cold. everyone suddenly wants to get warmer. layers of clothing from different people. I, too, can be like the fall season. in life, there could be a downfall for everything, however, if you look at the brighter side, there are significant things that await. although i end up being left with nothing, I will always find away to climb on top of a mountain. on top of a mountain, while looking down, I can see every beautiful thing that’s left. then I will start to realize that i didn’t really lose anything, i just earned new things that can ameliorate everything.
why winter? winter is the most beautiful time of the year for many. it is a season where the coldness can be felt thoroughly. thicker layers of clothing can be worn. though everyone loves winter, it can be very disastrous. the streets are filled with snow and it can be slippery. just like in my life, some things are in disguise. whenever i see something beautiful, i immediately think that it is great. however, looks can deceive. that beautiful thing can be my road to destruction. I have learned that I should not trust that easily. everything should be thought through.
why spring? spring is the season where everything blooms back. flowers can be seen again and the environment is vibrant in color. just like in my life, everything gets better eventually. no matter how many trials and how hard its been for me, there will always be a time when everything is at peace. it feels good to feel the calmness and the cool breeze of the wind.
in my 16 years of living, I already learned a lot of things. good and bad ones. I am waiting for the things that are yet to come in the near future. I cannot expect everything to go as planned but I trust that God will grant me the things that are meant for me.
